January flew by so quick that it had me analyzing just about everything from where life has taken me, to new friendships, to planning a wedding out of the states, to opening my own brick & mortar, to selling my home and just before I felt my heart shift gears to catch a breath I counted to ten…
Life is tricky
baby stay in your magic.
Life truly is tricky and if you let it consume every breath in your body it will have no problem doing just that. Confessions + Real Talk: I’ve spent the past three years letting life itself consume every inch of me, and by doing so it has held me back from a lot, but most of all it’s held me back from doing the things I love outside of work. Writing before Blog Called Jacq was just a way for me to journal my emotions, and balance out my crazy life without hitting the pavement (Writer vs Athlete, another topic + another day). What I’m trying to get at is that prior to BCJ I simply wrote without thinking: there was no agenda, no planning out each post, no images, no location scouting, no outfit changes, no Instagram liking & linking – blah blah blah – you get the picture. After a launched BCJ I felt myself writing because I had to for brands that were expecting it, or because I was trying to grow my digital presence, and although I’m truly grateful for that brief moment in my life (2013-2016) it also became daunting which is another reason why I didn’t allow myself to focus all of my energy strictly to writing.
“Life can also feel a bit like ding dong ditch.”
I get all excited and anxious to run up to the door and ring the doorbell, but the minute I do I find myself sprinting at full force in the opposite direction before the door even opens
I popped back on to BCJ at the end of 2018…
I believe it was sometime in November expressing that BCJ was back, but then immediately felt that pit in my stomach knowing that I wasn’t just lying to my readers I was lying to myself. I knew I wasn’t going to dive back in! Why? Because I knew writing for BCJ became a job, not a release. People say find something you love to do and you’ll never work a day again. That’s not always the case, because I did love writing, and I do love writing, and it wasn’t always enjoyable. I know that sounds bold, but I’m trying to give you a taste of what blogging can be if you allow it to consume you in all the daunting ways. I’ve evolved since writing three years ago, and I have a voice that wants to use it now to benefit others, and not just to write for brands but to educate others in paths that I’ve experienced. So as I currently sit on that doubt of “find something you love to do and it won’t be work,?” I have to ask myself what can I do differently to shift that positively, and the answer is yes find something you love and you’ll never work a day again, but don’t let it consume every breath in your body.
Please leave a comment below if you’d like tips on my experiences in life, and what I found worked and didn’t work for me when it came to “Blogging.”
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